I owe you words. I am keenly aware of this. I have not been living up to my end of the bargain.
So I prostrate myself before you: grovelling. Eyes big and wide and deep. Asking for forgiveness.
A temporary creative lull has forced me into writer’s limbo. I am grasping at straws here, folks. I even broke down and looked into the writing prompts that WordPress serves up occasionally.
And then I remembered the Bronze Goddess…
You all have a Bronze Goddess in your background. The minute you found her, your life changed forever.
She was freedom. She was happiness. She was your ticket out, to anywhere. She was your future.
Will you indulge me a bit to tell you about mine?
It was a warm fall afternoon all blue sky and golden leaves.
When I first laid eyes on her, she was ugly. So ugly that she was beautiful.
She smelled kind of funky. Earthy.
She was 10 years old, but in my defense she looked much older than that.
My hands caressed her lovingly even though my touch was uninvited.
I got no response. I might as well have been touching a corpse.
I gave her a slap on the flank. Again, nothing. Just the hollow sound of my handsmack.
But I was in love. Like I never had been before…like I never would be again.
I slid inside her. An exquisite feeling. Indescribable. My heart was cranking out some serious thumps. I knew I was headed for serious trouble this time. There was no going back now.
I did everything I was supposed to do to turn her on, but she was slow to respond.
Finally, I pushed things just a little further, and she came alive…trembling beneath me.
My Bronze Goddess.
A 1977 Plymouth Volare Premier station wagon.
Spanish Gold Metallic. With woodgrain sides. And a luggage rack.
Just a whisper over 22,000 original miles on her odometer.
I was a virgin until I was twenty. Oddly enough, I got rid of this car just before my 20th birthday.
Merely a coincidence, I’m sure. But I digress.
A 318 V-8. Torqueflite 727 3-speed automatic transmission.
Vinyl seats. AM radio. Conditioned air. Yep, that’s how I roll.
And yet, I loved her. By rights, the way I drove her I shouldn’t be alive to write these words.
She was a bad joke at first glance. Faded paint. Rust in all the right places. Milky windows. Dust and moldy funk inside.
In other words, a very typical ’70s Chrysler product.
I was the laughingstock of the parking lot at school, just like Arnie Cunningham in “Christine.”
And I was just as enchanted by my petroleum succubus as he was with his.
I dubbed her the Bronze Goddess. I actually stole the name from another student at my high school who had named HIS car that, but his car was something dirt common and unworthy of the moniker.
I drove. I loved to polish and wax her for hours, buffing with a old cloth diaper until you were blinded by the diamond glint of her metallic flake. I tinkered with her. I spent money.
Oh boy, did I ever spend money. Stupid money. I bought every snake-oil elixir that Autozone sold trying to fine-tune her engine performance. And I drove. And drove. And drove.
Thousands and thousands of miles. To Hell and back.
And the memories. I never christened her (as some of my friends suggested) by gaining carnal knowledge of some lithe female in the back part of the wagon. Mainly because I didn’t have any willing partners. But alas, I had plenty of fun: my first makeout session, my first copped feel. Wind in my face. The sweet future lay ahead as smooth as freshly pressed asphalt.
My first cross-country solo journey. She was my chariot to my personal Heaven on earth, the great state of Colorado.
And Colorado was where she met her end.
When I got my first real job and started making money, I decided that I was too good for her. I needed something nicer. Faster. Something to turn a lady’s head and catch her glance.
So I sold her off to a co-worker with still less than 50,000 original miles. She ran so smooth and true that I had that instant feeling of “Shit, I shouldn’t have done that.”
A few months later, in kind of dark that you only can find out in the country (well away from city lights), my co-worker hit a Blank Angus steer that had wandered onto the highway.
Not even the immortal Goddess could have survived.
He was fine, walked away with seat belt burn and bruises.
The Goddess was trucked away to fade into the weedy landscape of the local salvage yard.
I still think of her. Sepia-toned memories of rest-stops in Kansas, White Castle drive-thrus and the crisp, bracing air of the Western Slope.
You can only have one first car. Damn, she was the best.